Driving through the city in the night, when the lights are all out and glow before us like the halos that line along the steps of heaven...
Reminds me of all the times we entered the great city together
Hand on thigh
My mother's hand over mouth as she reads me bleed for you in the first few pages of my tepid heart
The smell of you under my tongue and in the divide between my thighs
Your essence under my temples
And those early days when I worshiped my god, mouth full of his blessings on my knees and let the church say
And then the middle.
Where we spat in the face of fate with foolish dreams and that awful "_ ____ ___"
I daren't even type out loud for all the times I've used the Love's name in vain
And then the end
When Player 1 has logged out, and I forgot how to play on full screen
Forgot where to put my fucking thumbs
And if I move my eyes from the screen, then it's game over butImeanisthatevenabadthingatthispoint
His cheat codes expired so of course he left
Left me unable to share a bed
Unable to look below the skin of the forehead of the men in my bed who all must leave immediately after because what exactly did you think this was?
When I fucked myself a new heart
Poured my own fluid, lit my own match
If I must burn to destroy the fingerprints that I could still see around my thighs and throat
Then I must burn
And so the end became that beginning
because what the Bible forgot to tell you
Was that that light in the beginning
That first light
That Genesis light
Was the distant flames of the first woman who had to set herself afire so that the world may begin again